Day 01: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day 02: Nine things about yourself.
Day 03: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day 04: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day 05: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day 06: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)
Day 07: Four turn offs.
Day 08: Three turn ons.
Day 09: Two smileys that describe your life right now.
Day 10: One confession.
1. Hi. So I've known you longer than any other of my friends, and funnily in that way, our friendship is perhaps the most dysfunctional of them all. We go through good times, and bad, and times that are neutral where we don't even see each other or talk at all for a few weeks. Even when we argue, there is something I always know: that is that you will always be there for me no matter what. Once we had a massive argument and didn't speak for over a month, and then something upset me a lot, and I phoned you up, bawling my eyes out unintelligible. You asked no questions but, "Where are you? How long will it take me to get there?" You are always there for me. Sometimes I feel a bit guilty, because you close yourself off, and I wish you'd let me be there for you properly too.
2. You are an inspiration to me in so many ways. With no money, little health and little support, you managed to single-handedly raise two bratty children all by yourself. One day, I am going to use that nurture and love and education you gave to me, and I am going to give it to my own child. Something else I'm going to give to a daughter is your name. I really wish you'd be able to be here to see her, because she is going to be a fantastic human being. My daughter Moira, will be told every day of the most amazing, strong, resourceful, loving and kind woman I have ever known; how she made every sacrifice a mother could feasibly make to give her kids the best she could, and how she should feel honoured to carry that name.
3. I can't believe I didn't meet you before. I know we only met very recently (and very drunkenly) but I really do feel already very close to you, that I can say absolutely anything, no matter how outrageous freely and not be judged. You are so genuinely nice too - I know already that I could turn up at your door at 3.30am completely wasted and crying and you'd drop everything and comfort me with coffee and chocolate. You've been especially supportive recently when I've really needed support, so thank you. Thank you so much.
4. You want to go to the RSAMD? Do you really? Then fucking get off your lazy little arse and get practicing and studying. Just passing your Higher Music isn't the most you can do. There is always something more you can do. Of all people, I should know exactly how hard it is to reach that standard of music, and even for me, it took a lot of effort. The hours and hours I spent practicing my flute you know, and the hours more I spent at wind bands and orchestras etc. Just coasting won't get you the best, you need to be dedicated to what you want.
5. You may be wise and often give good, reasonable and sound advice; but honestly, either you purposely misled me several times, or you are seriously misinformed about what you're talking about.
6. You know what day it is in 4 days? Do you remember? You probably don't; but that's okay, because I do. I have a chipped front tooth to remember all of it by.
7. I miss you. A lot. My GBF. I am sorry it had to turn out this way in the end; but you did betray my trust, and that it something on principle I couldn't forgive. I wish we could have still been friends, but the choice was yours - 3 years of best friendship, or a boy. You chose the boy, and although that makes me really sad, it also makes me really happy to know that you two are still together. I really hope you two make it, because I'd like to think our friendship counted for something better than that.
8. Please, please, please. You are a logical, reasonable and stable young woman. You have a stronger head on your shoulders than most people I know. So please, please, please, get a grip on reality soon.
9. If you exist please grant me this wish: can I pretend that aeroplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars? I could really use a wish right now.
10. You'll wonder why I likely won't talk to you anymore, and please believe me when I say it's not that I don't want to, it's just that everything I want to say I can't tell you anymore.
xxx
LOVE this idea!
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