Wednesday, 1 December 2010

10 Things for 10 Days - day 5

Day 01: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day 02: Nine things about yourself.
Day 03: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day 04: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day 05: Six things you wish you’d never done.

Day 06: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)
Day 07: Four turn offs.
Day 08: Three turn ons.
Day 09: Two smileys that describe your life right now.
Day 10: One confession.





1. I wish I'd never gone to look for tadpoles at the pond in Vogrie when I was five. My mum wasn't paying attention and I was away looking at the tadpoles and damselflies fascinated when my sister fell in and almost drowned. It was my fault - I should have been looking out for her - and if anything had ever happened to her I would never have been able to forgive myself. Even at that age. 


2. I wish I'd never started smoking. Don't get me wrong - I love smoking and almost every aspect of it; but I am addicted. Dependent on a substance for contentment, and that goes against everything I like to think I am. 


3. I wish I'd never said yes that first time, or that second time. 


4. I wish I'd never listened to the things you said to me, or at the very least I wish I hadn't believed them when you said them. Those comments left a massive scar, one that still hasn't healed. 


5. I wish I'd never learned how to use psychological warfare over physical violence with you. I wish I hadn't learned how to make you cry within 30 seconds, and I wish I hadn't ever used it in an argument with you. I am so sorry. 


6. I wish I'd never trusted you. 




xxx

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